Friday, December 4, 2009

brownies, biscotti and ben harper...

Immediately after publishing my last post I went back to baking. Often while I'm in my kitchen I listen to Pandora Internet Radio. For those of you who have never heard of Pandora, I highly recommend it. Just go to and follow the directions.

You basically create whatever type of radio station you want and the website tailors it to the type of music you like. Type in your favorite artists or songs and it will play that music and other similar types of music. It's free and it's a great way to learn about new artists and hear new songs. You can create as many different "stations" as you want.

I'm really not trying to advertise Pandora, however the technology behind Pandora has helped me in a very meaningful way. After my kids died I created stations for each of them. I typed in all of their favorite songs so I could always listen to and remember what kinds of music they liked. They had very different tastes and were very passionate about music.

Kate loved Miley Cyrus, the Spice Girls, Justin Timberlake, Nina Simone and anything from High School Musical. Peter was into Eminem (I think it was because he associated him with M&Ms), the Soundtrack from Cars, the Soundtrack from Pirates of the Caribbean and the Chipmunks. He also liked High School musical - I think he wanted to be just like Troy.

The coolest thing about Pandora, in my opinion, is that the stations you create seem to evolve over time. As new music is released, it's added to your stations. By creating Kate and Peter's Radio I thought I might be able to keep up on what they think is cool as time goes by. Thanks, Pandora!

Just now, while baking I was listening to Kate's Radio when "Waiting on an Angel" by Ben Harper came on. I've never heard this song before, but it's a good one. Needless to say...there are tears in the biscotti.


  1. Love your girl! I have listened to that song often and Love Ben Harper. That song you asked what it was on my phone yesterday day. It's called Fly One Time by Ben Harper. Take a listen to it. It's what I listen to after I hear Waiting on an Agnel. And those tears only add the most important ingredient to anything "Love"

  2. Wait no more, she is with you.

  3. You are really an amazing Mom! Making a Pandora radio station for both Kate and Peter really highlights how deep and profoundly you know and are connected to your children.
    I don't really know you except that I have been following this blog since the beginning and am a fellow ECS parent.
    I know you probably don't feel it but you Amy are a bright and shinning star. In the midst of this horrible tragedy, though you feel pain and suffering, you continue to put forth such love and hope and positive energy.
    People must say to you all the time, "I don't know how you go on because I couldn't if I were you." But you know what, if anyone of us were in your situation, we would also have to go on because that's life. The difference between you and the rest of us, is you go on in such a way with dignity, grace, hope, and love instead of choosing bitterness, anger, and hate.
    I think of you and your beautiful children every day.

  4. Hmmm, Biscotti.....
    It's about time you broke out them snacks!
    We are still here. (we might be quiet, but we ARE still here)
    Just like I promised.
    And I don't mind a tear at all, be it in a beer, biscotti, etc,.etc...

  5. You brighten the day of a lot of people with your blog. I am one of those fortunate to follow your posts. It's like they extract the best humanity in us, the purest thoughts, the desire to live life at its fullest and to enjoy every single moment with our children.

  6. I love Pandora - and what a wonderful idea to create stations for each of your children! I will be saying extra prayers for you this holiday season. {{{{hugs}}}}

  7. Your post made me smile as I can remember watching the "Cars" movie with Kate and Pater and how we would all dance to the "Life is a Highway" song. I believe that music is very powerful and connects us to people, memories and experiences. What a wonderful idea to make radio stations of their favorite songs. Thinking of you and wishing you many batches of heartfelt baking...

  8. Just wanted you to know you have lots of prayers coming your way.

  9. God bless you, I hope you can find peace, and I admire your strength and fortitude. I do believe that those who have passed are still with us. My grandmother visited me in a dream a few days after her death, telling me all was well, and how happy she was about my engagement, which she didn'tknow about. She always said she would contact us if she could after passing. I know in my heart it was her, just as I know that your kids are with you. Stay strong, and hopeful.

  10. you are an inspiration to all who deal with loss as a part of their daily lives. blessed be your endeavors.

  11. its a bummer, pandora is switching to a 40 hours free/month thing. i forgot when... boo